Brad you were my everything <3 my best friend,my brother,the shoulder to cry on. But most of all you were my Brad. The one that could always cheer me up no matter how much I would cry. And I can't stop crying right now. And I still dont believe you are dead, I cant even say how much its hurting me. 6 years I was blessed with your friendship. 6 wonderful years <3 I miss all the times we laughed together,sung badly together and cruised around together. All in all just hung out. But what kills me the most is i dont even know how this happened, or why? And I also found out through a facebook group. But Im glad i found out somehow. Brad you will always be in my heart you are my motivation through everything and even through this time you still are my motivation <3 For you I'll work harder towards my goal, go back to school. Because I know you would have wanted me to and cheered me on all the way through! You will always be my Yeldarb,My Bradley, My Brother and my bestest friend in the whole world <3 R.I.P Big Brother Love your Zippy <3

Christmas will always feel empty now that your gone </3
I love you and miss you and i wish I could hold you again. Last time I saw you we were laughing and going to Starbucks. Im going to miss you <3
This song is going to remind me of you for as long as I live and im probably going to be crying to it everytime I hear it.

Just wanted to wish you all happy holidays and for all of you to have a great new year!

Sorry another year without a Christmas story I just havent felt the Christmas cheer this year, maybe next year? But I will be posting SOMETHING soon. Since i will be working on my writing more settinga goal of at least 1000 words a week (small I know but thats the point) To go towards my novel

Also I ordered my secret cosplay and its getting made as we speak and will HOPEFULLY be here for J-Fest.

Going to a Photoshoot tomorrow with my Ciel (one of them anyways) and also spending sometime with her before her birthday

Hmmm what else?....OH YEAH! Im mega excited for 2011 and 2012 for certain plans that are being planned as I type this. Only like two people will understand what im talking about.

Also Excited for anime Evolution AND hopefully the fact of maybe attending Tsukino Con (Dont think I spelt it right...)

BUT ANYWAYS im straying off this journals purpose, I hope you all have a fun filled and safe Holiday! And have a awesome new year!


Love Mini~ <3

[] smoked
[] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[] watched porn
[ ] bought porn
[] tried drugs

TOTAL: 3

[x] taken painkillers
[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[ ] snuck out of the house
[ ] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[] seen someone die

TOTAL: 9

[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[ ] been to a therapist
[ ] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair
[ ] been in an accident
[ ] been to a club
[] been to a bar

TOTAL: 12

[x ] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[] sniffed anything
[x] wore black nail polish
[X] wore arm bands
[X] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap

TOTAL: 17

[] dressed gothic
[x] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[x ] stole something
[] been too drunk to remember anything
[ ] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[x ] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL: 21

[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone
[ ] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[ ] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL: 26

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper?
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[x ] gone to court
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age

TOTAL: 35

[] owned/rented an apartment/house
[x] broke the law in the police's presence
[] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[] kissed a stranger
[] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL: 40

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x ] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[] drank and drove
[x] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 48

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]


Also I reached over 17,000 page views AND BOUGHT MY SECRET COSPLAY ;D

IS THERE ANYTHING MORE THAT I CAN TYPE?!

Look I bought myself and A subscription since DA is having that buy one get one free thing. Check her out shes amazing!

Also for all of you who are like 'Why didnt you buy it for me?' Its either because:

A)You already have one
B)You dont go on DA that much to use it.

Also My Kuroshitsuji photoshoot/Birthday meetups coming up this sunday im excited to see everyone!


And my mother wins, she bought me my Tamaki Suoh wig for Christmas...Now I just have to wait T__T I hate waiting! I hope I have it for J-fest -3-

Also Im sorry in advance for any poll whoreing that may occur throughout the year. You have been warned.

And heres another question HOW THE HELL DO YOU MAKE JOURNAL SKINS?!' because im wanting to make my own now that I have a Subby~

AND HERES ANOTHER ALSO
IT MIGHT START SNOWING TOMORROW IF WAYNE (The weather man) DIDN'T LIE AGAIN D<

Mini is done ranting...for now.